its almost a month since the terrible day. Life is kinda weird. sometimes you may think that the worst is over, but there is always more to come. A blog is like a writing a diary, where you can share with some other people at the same time.
Marriage life isnt just about 2 people, but it invloves in many other people too. As we grow, it gets more and more complicated. Now i truely understand why many youngsters nowadays would want their own house and family that is away and not with the in laws. So, in a way u still feel that they will still have the control over themselves. If some cant even solve their own problems, it will be worsen if there are other factors in the family, other members in the family.
For my case is probably becos i dun understand in the 1st place or from the beginning so i didnt mind. Perhaps, all of us are just so used to the "home" we came from. The lifestyle where we are brought up in, so in a different family. You just cant understand. Maybe the only solution to all this, is to study the environment ya in and adapt to it? is that the way? what if u cant?
Living life day by day. My mom always tell me, raise your opinion if u have any trouble. But how leh? will it end up like stirring shit? Its sinful if u stir the wrong thing leh. Im not a vicious person that is able to play in the game. Not that i feel that my marriage is having problem. Maybe its all getting used to it,maybe i am too young? There are people i can share with, which made things rather tough sometimes. I am a cheerful person, and at many times i am able to tell myself."Andrea, dont think too much. Be strong!" Too emotional!!!
just wanna normal life and be happy. Not like the best happiness, joy, but just happy will do. whatever, when william is sad, im sad. when his worried, me too. haiz

3rd day. will be staying over at my mom's place, lesser memories of little blackie here. No doubts, i still miss her. This is unfair! not that i can appeal to anyone to bring her back. Been crying lesser, but will it start again once im back at telok kurau?
She might have been killed after eating parts of the rattan ball, due to digestion but this is ridiculous! the pet shop sold us a rabbit accessory that killed the rabbit? what kind of logic is this? its pet lovers somemore.
Life still got to go on.. yes...
but this feeling sux, sometimes u just dont really want to talk to anybody else other than family members. Worse thing, is i have school work coming up and due date is coming.... i just dont feel like doing anything and wanna rot.

Leave me to rot kinda feeling.

got her on the 2nd july, just a period of about 30 + days, my emotional level is @ the peak. Life is so fragile, this led me to further thoughts in life. When im getting older, my mom will eventually leave me. i really cant imagine how sad i will be comparing to today. i will faint on the floor. Soon everyone leaves, and when im all along, my children have their own lives. No one to support me as a pillar. Oh dear. i was telling william abt this. He said i shouldnt be too negative about it.
Furthermore, Im only 24 now, why bother thinking about 30 years later? thats true. this incident serves as a reflection of life.
i still wanna be happy and carry my smile wherever i go. i just cant do that for now. lets see. Just wanna say i still miss her.
sorry for hear my nags.

Only animal lovers will understand

Since the last time i had rabbits for the past 10 years and recently again. I tend to realise that many people cant understand why i can be sad over the loss of a "rabbit". the answer is the bond and attachment to it. You dont see it as an animal but a companion and part of ur life.

many had pets for the sake of having one, following the trend of being a pet-owner, to kill time, for gf to make her happy, etc but not to understand them. Only those who can see what these amazing animals can do when they r not human, yet they themselves have feelings too, for u.

Since yesterday, i hear people around me said

"its just a rabbit, for goodness sake"
"buy a new one lor"
" chey, its only a rabbit, not even a dog"

words like this, actually hurt me more, cos if u dun understand, and wanna help. Just dun give any comments.
becos to me
ITS MORE THAN THAT

its a living thing just like us and not as fortunate as just to able to have more things in life. In fact, to them, we are all they have.

so pls dun say such words. i will even feel sad for a hamster.

Its a sad sad saturday. It was just yesterday when i load my pictures from my camera into my computer. Pictures that i took since my wedding day till now. I havent been updating my blog for a long time. I always wanted to share with everyone and to present my new pet " blackie" pet rabbit.

Got her on the 2nd July for my birthday present, from my hubby. I remember i was looking the the rabbits in the pet shop and reminded me of my last rabbit named "blackie" too. At that moment, memories of him drew back into my mind and i really wanted to have another rabbit which i have been thinking about long time ago.

Worrying about the lost of a dear dear pet, stop me from having another one. However, that very day, i decided not to fear the feeling of Losing a loved one and i have blackie in my arms.Seems like its just fated that she left me today, after falling so sick and couldnt wait for us to send her to the vet. She passed away while we are on our way. The minute of that loss, the world seems like collapsing when there are still many reasons not to feel so that way.

She's just so young and small and she definately dont deserve such short life span. I only had her slightly more than a month. This shouldnt happen!!! no way!! yet i cant do anything to help and to see her go.

I kept thinking through what went wrong? and what is it that i havent done enough ? i have never neglected her eversince i had her. Everyday i will make an effort for her, before i go for my classes and when i am back home, i will let her run around or carry her upstairs while i watch tv. The day we bought her, the smile on me was pure happiness. Even william said i didnt smile or look so happy on our wedding. I was indeed very very happy.

Things just changed! i cant imagine on daily basis i have to walk through the steps ive seen her hopping on. I really loved blackie lots.

yet, yet... i have to accept it.

here a sweet memorable picture of blackie for one last time.

She will always be remembered in my heart and soul

Now u can understand how tiny she is.

when she tried to flip. beautiful eyes!

having a pet is good. Losing a beloving pet hurts. But, this makes me realise something in life everytime when this happen.

Life is fragile, and at any moment we shouldnt take it for granted. everyone around us, our loved ones. dont live in regrets!

Even the young ones, Taking blackie as an example. She's young and i never thought this would happen, esp so soon. It happened!

Dont neglect ur loved ones and ur pet who can only be with you for a short moment in ur life!

(let me drown in tears) may time heal!

DUE to popular demand. ESP jasmine and Jean wants to know how William propose.

COME ON! u all must be thinking that it will be exceptionally romantic.

ans is, No la, not like what u tot.

we were sitting on the sofa in his room and he starting talking to me about our past and future, saying that we somehow acknowledge each other to be future husband and wife and why not take a step further so are u willing to marry me....

happy now?

kaoz, it was only after i agreed then my engagement ring came.

Sisters of the day and some missing ones too.
From bottom, left to right: Hui wen, Yoke Kheng
From top, left to right : Eillieen, Clarice, Kenneth, Yifei, Zixuan

Almost like a miracle fren. QIQI on the left. Met twice and chat lots on msn

Biggest pic of my life as the background.

Me and mommy, and my huge smile!

And more sisters.

updates on the wedding after 1 week's time. not that ive disappeared again. Just that william is on leave for a week so, i became on leave too although it seemed like every other day is a weekend for me.

I havent been online for very long, and according to my frens who i met yesterday on my SURPRISED birthday party said they havent gotten the chance to speak to me online so dun worry i will come online soon, if not u can oso refer to my blog.

Talk about the wedding first, i know i am a little late to say these to u, my frens. Thanks for coming and without u, everything couldnt have happened. Sisters did a great job and without a sungle word of complain to wake up early and arrived as early as 630am, thats YIFEI. Coming all the way from the EAST, Huiwen. From north, Kenneth and Zixuan and Teresa and dressed cute with short pink ties. Ngee Poly frens who i dun get to meet very much yet made effort to attend the dinner. Frens from Looque and other agencies. I am so happy to meet all of u.

Was just checking my mails and Yifei sent me some pics on the wedding. To be honest i havent load my pics in from my camera yet. LOL

Using Yifei's pics to share with u guys. Here it is

Before the dinner. I hate adjusting the pics and i just cant do it properly.

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29th was my actual birthday but last night some frens arranged a surprised party for me at wan ping's place and i was touched by it. Initially i was telling them that ive suspected something but it turned out better than what ive imagined.

They cater food in the function room with a cake. Probably about 15 people in total. I was too LAZy to wear my lenses and i went with my spec. In another words, i was an aunty yesterday. LOL.

All of us sat down to have dinner, chit chat and proceed to wp's place for some black jack. it was a nice gathering after the wedding.

I am glad to have frens who did this for me cos i felt that this doesnt happen frequently. Lotsa arrangements.

I am very happy. Lost of words.

Thank u very much. HUGS

TOMORROW!!! is the day


i cant believe it, its tomorrow! thats really fast. I am still worried that things wouldnt turn up well or right. My friend, cadence just contacted me to inform me about the closure of the road for NDP tomorrow. PHEW! at least one of the lanes are open and cars can still reach the carpark.
Otherwise, disaster! One more thing is about the games for tomorrow. my friends are young and inexperience as sisters, so how would it be? hmm, but i guess my REAL sister will be around and could guide them through, i hope.
I havent pack my luggage and the house. My mom and i deicided not to borrow chairs cos it should be a short duration thingy, so whoever may need to sit, might have to sit on the floor if the sofa and the available chairs are taken.
Oh dear, i am gng to be MRS tomorrow! argh!!!!!

scared scared! i dunno how to describe how i feel. maybe when the night has come i will feel even more.

for those who like to view more pics of the wedding, can try this website

www.wa.tuckys.com

Gone for like forever?

nah, been busy with the wedding preparationss for my big day this saturday, 23rd june at hotel marina mandarin. To marry the man of my life, my support and my pillar.

now i understand what many has gone thru the process of the everything for my big day. Am i worried? yes...

worried that things might not turn up well, not that i am expecting alot from it. I can say that i dun at all, only the minimum but kinda worried still it might be even more horrible.

I hope those who said and agreed to turn up, will do so.

Not making too much losses.

people would have fun esp the brothers and sisters.

not too tiring

i wont fall too sick, cos i am already.

same goes for william

today we went to collect the wedding certificate, to be sign on the 23rd. They made us raise our right hand to say the oath, individually.

One funny thing was that lady asked my if i understood what i was saying. probably due to my "UN"serious manner. She went like " Do you understand?"

i have to say i was a little offended only after 5 mins when i recall what she said? lol

silly still------ to ME

had lunch with his parents, Nasi Padang

meet Fiona, the lady in charge of our wedding dinner

i love the hotel that im holding the wedding.. its beautiful.

thanks william, after all the trouble u been through,, but u know dear

this is just one in our lifetime.. i believe there wont be anymore things that are more troublesome than this..

I love you. lotsa

heres some pics, must at least load a few wedding ones.

i will load more when i can. cya

his "sweet smile" at the peak

Xu Liu Shan - tasted the same to me when the spore branch was still around

his fear of taking a cable car ride- honestly it can be quite scary.

pic with the sealion, sun bian take shelter cos of the rain

i think this pic is good

i am tat short

been back for a while. time for some pics, otherwise my blog is getting boring.

a short intro of my dear when he is young.

he has to carry everything.. taken on the 1st day of arrival in Hong Kong. making our way to the hotel "metropark hotel"

At "the peak" it was raining so heavily and long hours till we have problems making our way to get good scenery under the umbrella.

borned in the year of boar.

Xbox arena

HS dear dear, trying to kiss pretty lady

deeply in love with brad pitt

Standing next to mr lee.

dear and andy lau.

i gottta run for my errands... i will update more pics soon. seeya

Haha... i haven mention in my blog tat im going to hong kong. but now, im already in Hong Kong. In case anyone might ask, its for holiday with my love one. It has been a tedious week for us, which that are a few things which ive forgotten to bring it with me, therefore we have to run to many places to get them. We have been busy as we decided to be husband and wife.. haha. all gals dream i guess.

Currently in hong kong, its been like raining ever since we arrived here. One of the most impt thing i didnt bring and dont intend to buy is the camera cable. Means i cannot load any pics that ive taken here. One funny thing was, i asked william. Is it going to rain or the sky is turning dark, cos some countries turned dark quickly during winter, but i doubt so for hong kong. He told me that the sky is like this cos its polluted.

And soon, it poured.The hotel is near "tian hou"MTR station, hong kong island. I think the hotel is not bad but william dun reali think so. to me its new, clean = GOOD= thumbs up!

Poor him, got drenched while trying to buy a umbrella and me waiting at the bus stop.We managed to get one but its kinda ex for an umbrella. HK70.

We had lunch at causeway bay, some fast food HK food place , think the name is " cafe-XXX" ive forgotten the name. anyway the food is economic, standard so so, edible. haha i expected too much from HK food i guess. Its abt singapore standard.

Now, im back in the hotel. Using their free broadband service.updating my outdated BLOG.We are going to remain in the hotel till the rain stop, at least. I will need to read through some brochure on the place we should visit. Pls ! rain rain go away! come again another day!, esp after i leave.

See ya..

exams ended yesterday. felt a little lost after cos all of a sudden like, NO aim! need assignments to keep myself busy man. went to do threading at wheelock this afternoon and proceed on to catch a movie, All alone..
the show was a korean show called the 200 pounds beauty. if i didnt remember it wrongly. funny show.. not bad, to me..

hai boring
waiting for my hong kong trip in slightly more than a week's time and great spore sale on 25th.. haha

and more pay cheque!

almost 2 weeks gone. Today was the 1st examination paper and that is organisational behaviour. Havent been taking any pictures so they isnt any new pics to share. Finally the exam has begun. Not that i am fully prepared for it but when the beginning starts, ending is on its way too.
Its been causing me to feel rather frustrated with it, cos whatever that im doing i dont feel at ease. Something calling me and that is to "get back to my books" although i really really dont want.
Just a few days before, i kept asking myself. How am i going to do my paper. Am i able to answer? Am i able to remember the theories and concept from 17 chapters in total. How am i able to recall and will i end up sitting there dazing. I tend to dream off, on and off. Imagining myself sitting in the examintaion hall, looking at the paper.
The image i had was how am i able to handle it. That kind of though is something i havent thought of. Its like looking forward to see how i face the paper and do it. more like curiousity. interesting too.
The next paper will be on the 3rf, which means i have 3 more days to the paper and that will include today. I haveny studied after today's paper. Im gonna looking into my notes later and i definately have to start on something today.

To delete organisational behaviour theories and concept and adopting Accounts now. Hope i all i studied will come out. I dont feel very confident about it but will look on the positive side of it. Believe in myself before others do. Crapping again

:)
have a nice labour day!

Im back again after disappearing for a few days.

That dove commercial was a tough job, but in the end its still worth it... money compensate the hard work.. haha

well, that day's work lasted 18 hours. Supposingly to end at 7pm .. 11 hours from 8am, reporting time till 7pm. But, things didnt turned up well and many amendments to the setting up process, the lighting and etc.

so, overall it ended at 3am.. faintz, my neck nearly break, and it hurt for the next 2 days. still worth it and good experience i reckon.

Many time ppl would ask me, " your hair is so long, have you done any commericial of it?" my reply was "nope!" no lobang. This is my first hair ad, but kinda sad in a way cos its for Vietnam. to thin about it, this is my 2nd vietnam ad... maybe my face is more suitable for there? haha

Oh, there was a scene where i have to turn my head and to flip it at the same time.. there was quite fun esp it was the 1st scene and im most energetic on.

you know u always see those gals on tv flipping their hair and u always wonder how come the hair seemed to fly very well?

now i know why, with fishing strings. interesting!

i wore the swimsuit ( the costume i had to wear) for the 18 hours. The string on my neck can strangle me alive. Towards the last 3 hours, i reali hope i can just die cos i am dead tired. I even imagine God came to my rescue. you can say im crazy. lol

i didnt take much pictures cos everyone was busy. i still have a few to share.

Crab as one of the important role in the ad. lol think its dead now, chilli crab

They built this in order to shoot from above and i have to lie on the sand. man made beach

Make up artist, jasmine and hairstylist sophian and me... a bit dark

A clearer pic. thats the costume i wore. towel to kee myself warm

Crew members from the production team. discussing.

and again, near near!

Im feeling kinda lucky these few days...i hope it will not change until my exams are over... touch wood.

Went for a casting on Tuesday afternoon for a dove shampoo ad, to be screened in Vietnam. I hesitate for a while on going for the casting due to some factors which are
1. vietnam ad
2. quite a big assignment, and i would think my chances may not be that high.
3. Casting place is a little far
4. Exams are around the corner, could it be a waste of time?
5. If i get the job, i would waste a day to, study? haha

After telling my mom that i dont feel like going, she made a remark " Normally, those castings that you dun feel like going, you will get the job"
After she made that statement, ive decided to go esp when she offered me a ride and after that to the agency to get my cheque.. finally, after waiting for quite a while. haha

Indeed, my mom's prediction was right. yesterday afternoon, my agency called me. saying that im shortlisted and they are choosing between two gals and im one of them and i have to be prepared to head to the casting place to allow the stylist to check the condition of my hair, anytme from abt 2pm to 6pm.

Took a nap till about 5:30pm, no news.. when its closer to 6pm, my mom asked me whether i wanna join her for a swim. Thinking that my chances is getting from slim to almost nothing.. I went for a swim with her and my nephew Owen .

At about 630pm i received a miss call from the agency saying that i am picked by them.. Hooray! i gotten the assignment. My 1st shampoo cum conditioner ad after being asked by many ppl if i am ever offered for a hair ad.

Immediately came home, shower, washed my hair and ZOOM to the casting place... did some fittings, photos and etc.
Went to this Salon at meridien hotel, forgotten the name though, quite a nice place for hair treatment and now im getting myself ready for tmr's job. 11hours, tough job too, in swimsuit. wahaha!
pretending to be under the sun.

ok time to do some reading!
sianz..

Kenneth's birthday on the 4th, we went to have steamboat buffet at Bugis.. drove down that day.. it was difficult to find a parking lot. Luckily, i met Eddy and he helped me with a parallel lot.

that place is not bad, but the smell is extremely strong. After dinner i drove to "near near"'s house to catch him... actually to surprise him but he wasnt.. such a failure.

eat until so happy..

Steamed as always... wahaha

Group pic at the stairs in the restaurant

another pic outside, lucky kenneth surrounded with gals

poser

and more poser

by the way, the show i did at cafe del mar, is on the website of stomp... feel free to vire them ... here's the link


http://www.stomp.com.sg/gallery/cafedelmar2007/index.html

http://www.stomp.com.sg/gallery/cafedelmar2007/index2.html




actually these are all on a single website, but in 2 different pages...