One more day to the finals.
Yesterday's rehearsal is tiring yet fun especially for the night rehearsal when they start playing the music. my group (4) was dancing at the backstage. I think its good as ot relaxes our mind and keep us calm.
Slept at 2 plus woke up at 9 plus, awaken by some sms. Friends telling me that they saw me on the straits time with the highest votes. I thought it was some small article,maybe not highest but just mentioning of my name or so.. shocking enough to see something different and i must really thank my friends and relavtives who has supported me so far. Thank you so much!really appreciate u guys. Winning isnt the main issue, but the support given made me half a winner in yours and my eyes. XIE XIE NI!

couldnt get a picture online so i have to take it with my camera.

At the beginning, i was worried that no one would even sms me. To prevent myself to end up with 0 sms, i sms myself once on first day at least it wont be too ugly.

As for the rest of my day till evening, i will be slacking at home. Blogging can now be my next part time hobby. This is so fun. Simply cant stop writing, i have so much in mind. Hoping for more new things to come along. When i was little i always think i am not in luck ( very suay) whatever that i do teacher will scold. Hate studying but forced to. Doing everything against my will, not within my area of interest at all. Still with the encouragement of my mother. So far, i still managed to pull through all the way till ive completed my diploma in Building and Real estate management in Ngee Ann polytechnic, might then move on to a degree linked to it.

Previously, i was doing business in SIM which wasnt something i could handle. Not to drag it further ive decided to stop and considering of switching course to building. If nothing goes wrong i should start next year SIM (part time). Although that year seems wasted, but there were new stuff coming along. School pageant, MSU now newface.. haha geez... life is full of hopes. So never to say die.

Talking about studying... ARGH till now i still Hate it. What to do, like everyone would say " A DEGREE IS A MUST" fair enough and i also agree with it. I will work hard on it man. My path in education is longer than other people. Am i "less" smart or "slow"? haha just something i dun like la. I have basic 6 years in primary school. Was from a top primary school leh to a neighbourhood school. Got condemed real bady like a teacher who i shall not name and no longer in the school and i know she is still alive too. OOPS..

I wont send my children to a top school, teachers are BIAS even till now i still think BIAS exist in schools. Rich kids better luck, poorer ones dont even think about it UNLESS that particular teacher's main INTEREST is to teach. Ive met a couple before and i really liked them.

Moving on to secondary school. I didnt do well in my PSLE as good as the prelims. Admitted into the normal academic course. Fortunately i should say, in N(A) course you are given a chance to do your O levels if you pass you N levels otherwise you can just go ITE.

1st 3 years in school, i did pretty well. was in the top 25% overall standard. received bursary every year. UNTIL sec 4.. BGR problemsssssss

BGR provide sweetness and sorrow. That bf is still my friend and in my friendster. At the end of the day ive never treated ex- bfs as enemies. Failed my prelims for N levels. My form teacher called my mom to inform her about it. My mom, April locked me in the room for the next 2 weeks before the exact exam starts. I passed my N levels and moving to my o levels.

It was a huge jump from N to O levels. Different syllabus. All subjects are tough. Bad in science, bother chemisty and physic. Never passed a single test throughout the year. Towards the end, i passed 3 subjects. Could only applied Nursing and Maritime Transportation in poly. Applied a course ( hotel management) at Shatec. Got accepted, yet decided to re-do my O. preferred studying in a poly and was my mom and my dream. Facilities part will be better and cheaper. After my second attempt, i passed my science (MIRACLE) thanks to my tuition teacher. MR LEE teaching at Marsiling. I didnt go back to school to resit it, instead i was a private student. Didnt do anything for that year and relatives love to ask. All along my pride is always hurt, losing to other cousins..they always love to ask about my results.. hate it

To me things ive been through is an learning experience. Learned to pick up my pride telling people my flaws. Laugh if you want and dont be bothered ( still learning that though) if you think i am not good enough to be your friend, same goes for you.

:)

Next, i combined my cert got into Ngee ann. Thats when life really starts. Found close friends from there. Secondary sch frens mostly disappoint me. Things picked up and i didnt fail a single subject in poly man... lol

I hope people who read this thinks that life sux or having the same problem like me can find this encouraging and helpful.

find myself very long winded, cant control leh... aunty le