Last night was a terrible night with Jessica. She KEPT crying, dreaming... I couldnt even sleep. Such bad nights, remind me that MOTHERHOOD isnt easy and how much more i can take. If tonight she is going to behave like this again, i can DIE. She slept rather late last night because my friends stayed till late so she got excited and we came home late after our trip to the airport.
Before 12am, she cried 3 times. I went to bed at about 2 plus and she never really stop crying, so i turn on the cartoon to ease her.
She watched till 3am, and refused to sleep. I couldnt take it anymore so i walked her to my mom's room, so sleep with her instead. I went back to bed, try to sleep again, i heard her crying. Feeling tired and worried at the same time, knowing that she is calling for mommy downstairs. But i was really tired.
While i was lying on my bed, i felt that i couldnt sleep. I wasnt sure if i even slept, after tossing and turning, i saw sunlight coming through the curtains. I think i didnt sleep man.
Woke up at 9 plus, came down. Went parkway with friends again, have lunch and all. Came back at about 4pm and havent taken any nap till now. Feeling high! and hopefullyyyyyyyy, i can sleep by 10pm without any disturbance through the night. I pray.......... Amen

(eyes getting smaller n smaller ), i shall remember this day and when Jessica is a grown up, i make her read this!! Jessica darling, you are not a easy baby! I hope when u read this, you are a successful, good person in your life.
 Love you, mommy

My KFC tvc is out. Lots of people doesnt understand the storyline. Me either. But i think i looked quite ok as a bride once more. I managed to video it down with my webcam, but sort of missed out the very first bit.
Just on Sunday there was an article about me on Shin min (chinese paper). A reporter called me after viewing my interview with Razor Tv, for mother's day. I liked the video and i thought Jessica looks cute too. William didn't like to be on the video esp when they filmed our wedding pic, and saw his face. well....
I do enjoy being a mother and there is always an obstacle one after another. Just 2 days ago, Jessica could'nt sleep well. She kept saying "Ulcer, Ulcer". Which we thought there was an ulcer. After i used a torchlight to examine her mouth, i dont see any and suspected it to be teething problem.
Just last night, she didnt sleep well again and i suddenly remembered i have some painkiller for the use of teething too, so i injected it into her mouth, so she managed to sleep slightly better. Same goes for me.
Her sleeping problem gave William a bad night and he didnt sleep a wink and couldnt work. Sorry about it, and there is nothing i can do about it. I dont remember myself of my teething problem, i cant explain.
This teething thing, resulted her not sleeping well and eating well. Fortunately, she can drink her milk. Thank God! i was worried about her health. This morning took her to the doc at Parkway and indeed i guess correctly about her symptoms. Doc says this could last up to 2 weeks. Oh dear! I bought some baby food, puree food, fruits gel for her. I can see that she really wants to eat but she didnt dare to. Poor baby. Mommy is here for you, always!

Cant wait for this to end.

The interview with Razor Tv

http://razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/currentaffairs/47504.html