Last night was a terrible night with Jessica. She KEPT crying, dreaming... I couldnt even sleep. Such bad nights, remind me that MOTHERHOOD isnt easy and how much more i can take. If tonight she is going to behave like this again, i can DIE. She slept rather late last night because my friends stayed till late so she got excited and we came home late after our trip to the airport.
Before 12am, she cried 3 times. I went to bed at about 2 plus and she never really stop crying, so i turn on the cartoon to ease her.
She watched till 3am, and refused to sleep. I couldnt take it anymore so i walked her to my mom's room, so sleep with her instead. I went back to bed, try to sleep again, i heard her crying. Feeling tired and worried at the same time, knowing that she is calling for mommy downstairs. But i was really tired.
While i was lying on my bed, i felt that i couldnt sleep. I wasnt sure if i even slept, after tossing and turning, i saw sunlight coming through the curtains. I think i didnt sleep man.
Woke up at 9 plus, came down. Went parkway with friends again, have lunch and all. Came back at about 4pm and havent taken any nap till now. Feeling high! and hopefullyyyyyyyy, i can sleep by 10pm without any disturbance through the night. I pray.......... Amen

(eyes getting smaller n smaller ), i shall remember this day and when Jessica is a grown up, i make her read this!! Jessica darling, you are not a easy baby! I hope when u read this, you are a successful, good person in your life.
 Love you, mommy