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I want to write about my pregnancy just to remember all had happened, what i have gone through and im only on my 3rd month. i have 2 more trimester to go.
My first pregnancy was easy, very easy and no problem at all. My checkup started on my 2nd month pregnancy and i only needed to visit the doc once a month. No stretch marks, no water retention. Just very bad memory and i believe my memory isnt that good in the first place.
My 2nd pregnancy, i visited the doc on my 1st month too. It was good and expecting to visit the doc a month later. We were very happy to hear the baby's heartbeat and looking forward to its growth.  One day, on the 24th of june i had some bleeding. It was more like fresh blood and i panicked. I changed my plans for the day. Called william and he joined me at the clinic. The doc did a check and doesnt seemed worried enough to admit me when william asked him if i needed to. I insisted on going home. No one likes to stay in a hospital mah....
That same night, i ate something wrong and my bleeding hasnt stop. Not very heavy flow, but bleeding. William asked to take me to the hospital. I didnt dare to refuse because he wanted me to stay earlier on in the clinic.
Went to Gleneagles A&E, the nurses made a call to my gynae and he came. He decided to admit me. That incident i stayed for 2 nights. Everything was good after. William and i celebrated our bdays and anniversary too. On the actual day of my bday, we went to universal too.
About 1 week after, on a thursday after Jessica's shicida class. I went to ION, jalan jalan a bit. The only thing that happened was, jessica wanted to poo poo, i carried her all the way to the toilet. My mom and i wanted to go to the car to get the stroller , just as we reached the carpark. I felt a FLOW , almost all the way to my ankle and i was wearing a pair of jeans.
I told my mom i cant walk anymore to the car. I sat at one of the pillar at the carpark till the car came. I called the clinic and went there straightaway. I thought i lost the baby, i really did. I had to sit on a wheelchair to get to the clinic. Totally cant walk. Everything was like leaking out. Scary.............
Doc admitted me again and i stayed for 2 nights once more. The only thing i enjoyed in the hospital was the food. I dont know why i thought the food was delicious, maybe its the morning sickness that changed my taste.
I had to lie in bed till the blood stopped, cant even go to the toilet. everything was done on the bed. On the day of my discharge, William took me to great world city's crystal jade for lunch. We parked near the lift and the restaurant was near the lift. Basically i didnt walk much. Half way through lunch, i felt a flow AGAIN.......................................
Shit..................
i struggled to the carpark, couldnt find the car..................
we were on the wrong floor. I sat at the bars to wait for william. This time round we didnt go back to the clinic and it was a sat. We came home. I lied in bed like im in the hospital, i isolated myself till bleeding stopped.
A week after, it is my doc appt again. everything was smooth again. I sat in the car, eating my biscuit. Then, the FLOW came again. This time round i was sitting down somemore................... OMG...
When we reached the clinic, we had to valet and the nurse waited for me with the wheelchair. When i came down the car. The gleneagles stuff looked at my direction. This girl looked fine mah, why need a wheelchair. Next thing was, they saw blood coming down my legs. Like those TV drama la, both legs somemore..
Once more, i was admitted again and to stay in bed till bleeding stopssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss........
faintz. shake head. Well it isnt the end yet.. I had another incident at home, not as heavy as those i mentioned. Another week later , on a monday i went to see my doc again. 2weeks appt date, i couldnt wait. One week later i went back. He didnt want to admit me, but i looked too pale. He said i needed more blood, blood transfusion. I stayed for a night and prayed not to return ANYMORE.
Everytime when the weekend is near, all of us will be phobia. For almost all the weekends, esp sat, incidents happen. This week we manage to pass it. Ive been getting countless jabs. These jabs are really painful and now i needed to take them twice a week. It is painful because it is oil based. The needle has to go all the way into my butt. Worse than epidural. From the 2nd admission onwards, i get jabs . each stay about 3-4 jabs.. Think all in all, about 15 jabs in total, for now exclusing the blood tranfusion needle.
With the jabs and my hormones, i have colic problem too. My doc says that my 1st pregnancy is too smooth and boring. this, overly exciting until he dont want to see me so often. For ur info, baby is good, growth is good. its more of the mommy's problem. what to do? sacrifices from a mommy. I have to wait for another month for my pregnancy to be stable, im really looking forward to that..

sigh...

baby, baby. u must stay strong cos mommy is willing to go through all these. We must be strong and u must be healthy.