I just can't help it. All negative thoughts are flying through my head. Don't seem to be resting well during this confinement period, when I should make use of the nanny and get as much rest as possible.
Sometimes I wish my old helper is around. Not that the new one is terrible, just that she hasn't been picking English well enough, when is almost 2 months. She "gong gong" one and I'm sure she isn't 23 years old lah. She loves the newborn, but definitely not capable of taking care of her. I tend to worry when she brings my older one down to the playground. She don't seem to know the danger around.Hai
Am I going through mother blue leh? Or I've been home for too long, cos I dun stay home that much. But I went universal studio last sat for a short while and had dinner out on Sunday. Oh well, I just needed time to pull through this moody period. I'm glad that my mom is around for standby. Otherwise. . . .

Hello and I'm back. Not sure for how long but I'm having my confinement now. Yes, Rebecca has arrived at her 37th week. My actual edd was 29 Jan. Her birthday is very close to my elder daughter, they can have their birthday party together next year onwards. A big birthday cake, I suppose.
This pregnancy is indeed a tough one and my first pregnancy was very smooth. Whatever I hope not to happen in this pregnancy, all happened. One of them was c section. It ended up as an emergency c section because my water bag burst when I'm not into labour. My placenta was low and causes bleeding in the middle of the night, 2am. My husband and I thought it was the "bloody show" but we were so wrong. I went into labour ward stayed till 8 plus for the doc to come and check.
The whole experience happened so fast and scary enough, I will never forget. Stayed in hospital for 3 long sleepless nights. Haiz, I'm just glad the baby is healthy and heavier than we thought she might be. I guess it won't be easy from now on. 2 kids, more responsibilities. I am happy to have them in my life. With all the sufferings, it is worth it. Now, I appreciate my mother even more cos she went through the operation for us.