Im into my 20 weeks and finally i felt that my friend was right. Time passed faster in this 2nd pregnancy than the 1st. Just one more month, im into my third trimester. I so much agree with my husband's friend Eugenia that pregnancy isnt fun at all and we totally cant understand why some people could even enjoy. Yes, it is nice to feel the movement of the baby but the process of feeling clumsy and ugly once more has come back. I cant fit into my tops and even shorts. My tummy seemed bigger this time round. My last pregnancy , the bump can only be seen when im 5 months. Now , i could see the growth since the 3rd month onwards.
Anyway, im expecting another baby girl. Was a little disappointed but im feeling ok now because i wont need to buy new clothings. It can be pass down from jessica. Most important it is healthy. Im going for my detailed scan later at this gynae, supposed to specialise in detecting abnormal babies, although my triple test results were the risk was low. William prefers the safer way.
Yesterday, william, jessica and i went to catch the Barney show at expo. The one that we've been telling Jessica about for the past whole month.

everyone is waiting for their turn to snap the poster

she wants to wear her costume

we didnt want to buy more soft toys , in the end.... we bought the BJ and baby Bop
i enjoyed the show, i thought it was better tha the disney on ice.
I havent been taking pictures of myself, so cant update on my baby bump.

Being a computer idoit. I have no idea why i can add a new post. I had to go through my draft pages just to add a new post. It takes ages to load at at the bottom it is written as error on page. If anyone could tell me any solution.
I want to write about my pregnancy just to remember all had happened, what i have gone through and im only on my 3rd month. i have 2 more trimester to go.
My first pregnancy was easy, very easy and no problem at all. My checkup started on my 2nd month pregnancy and i only needed to visit the doc once a month. No stretch marks, no water retention. Just very bad memory and i believe my memory isnt that good in the first place.
My 2nd pregnancy, i visited the doc on my 1st month too. It was good and expecting to visit the doc a month later. We were very happy to hear the baby's heartbeat and looking forward to its growth.  One day, on the 24th of june i had some bleeding. It was more like fresh blood and i panicked. I changed my plans for the day. Called william and he joined me at the clinic. The doc did a check and doesnt seemed worried enough to admit me when william asked him if i needed to. I insisted on going home. No one likes to stay in a hospital mah....
That same night, i ate something wrong and my bleeding hasnt stop. Not very heavy flow, but bleeding. William asked to take me to the hospital. I didnt dare to refuse because he wanted me to stay earlier on in the clinic.
Went to Gleneagles A&E, the nurses made a call to my gynae and he came. He decided to admit me. That incident i stayed for 2 nights. Everything was good after. William and i celebrated our bdays and anniversary too. On the actual day of my bday, we went to universal too.
About 1 week after, on a thursday after Jessica's shicida class. I went to ION, jalan jalan a bit. The only thing that happened was, jessica wanted to poo poo, i carried her all the way to the toilet. My mom and i wanted to go to the car to get the stroller , just as we reached the carpark. I felt a FLOW , almost all the way to my ankle and i was wearing a pair of jeans.
I told my mom i cant walk anymore to the car. I sat at one of the pillar at the carpark till the car came. I called the clinic and went there straightaway. I thought i lost the baby, i really did. I had to sit on a wheelchair to get to the clinic. Totally cant walk. Everything was like leaking out. Scary.............
Doc admitted me again and i stayed for 2 nights once more. The only thing i enjoyed in the hospital was the food. I dont know why i thought the food was delicious, maybe its the morning sickness that changed my taste.
I had to lie in bed till the blood stopped, cant even go to the toilet. everything was done on the bed. On the day of my discharge, William took me to great world city's crystal jade for lunch. We parked near the lift and the restaurant was near the lift. Basically i didnt walk much. Half way through lunch, i felt a flow AGAIN.......................................
Shit..................
i struggled to the carpark, couldnt find the car..................
we were on the wrong floor. I sat at the bars to wait for william. This time round we didnt go back to the clinic and it was a sat. We came home. I lied in bed like im in the hospital, i isolated myself till bleeding stopped.
A week after, it is my doc appt again. everything was smooth again. I sat in the car, eating my biscuit. Then, the FLOW came again. This time round i was sitting down somemore................... OMG...
When we reached the clinic, we had to valet and the nurse waited for me with the wheelchair. When i came down the car. The gleneagles stuff looked at my direction. This girl looked fine mah, why need a wheelchair. Next thing was, they saw blood coming down my legs. Like those TV drama la, both legs somemore..
Once more, i was admitted again and to stay in bed till bleeding stopssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss........
faintz. shake head. Well it isnt the end yet.. I had another incident at home, not as heavy as those i mentioned. Another week later , on a monday i went to see my doc again. 2weeks appt date, i couldnt wait. One week later i went back. He didnt want to admit me, but i looked too pale. He said i needed more blood, blood transfusion. I stayed for a night and prayed not to return ANYMORE.
Everytime when the weekend is near, all of us will be phobia. For almost all the weekends, esp sat, incidents happen. This week we manage to pass it. Ive been getting countless jabs. These jabs are really painful and now i needed to take them twice a week. It is painful because it is oil based. The needle has to go all the way into my butt. Worse than epidural. From the 2nd admission onwards, i get jabs . each stay about 3-4 jabs.. Think all in all, about 15 jabs in total, for now exclusing the blood tranfusion needle.
With the jabs and my hormones, i have colic problem too. My doc says that my 1st pregnancy is too smooth and boring. this, overly exciting until he dont want to see me so often. For ur info, baby is good, growth is good. its more of the mommy's problem. what to do? sacrifices from a mommy. I have to wait for another month for my pregnancy to be stable, im really looking forward to that..

sigh...

baby, baby. u must stay strong cos mommy is willing to go through all these. We must be strong and u must be healthy.

After purchasing the iphone, i barely use my camera for photo taking. I have been loading my pictures directly from my phone to FB. Iphone is a fantastic invention . Been having lots of mood swings recently and im learning to cope with it. From my research, it is part of the hormones change and that is because i am expecting no. 2.. I certainly hope it will be a boy, because that is what william would want. It will be perfect to have a girl and a boy. Ive gotten my girl though.
I would think that by thinking too much resulted in my mood swing. Afterall, my helper is leaving in October and she cant stay longer as she has home matters to settle which is all the same for all helpers. I had to let her leave earlier even her contract ends in Feb next year. I need time to get use to new helper and train her too. SO too much thoughts for now. I know William is trying to reduce my worries, he managed to get a confinement nanny that is willing to work during CNY. Btw, baby due on CNY period. But, i have to say women can think alot and im one of them.
How is Jessica able to cope, her school term starts in Jan too. Everything, all together. Gotta take 1 step at a time.
Meanwhile, i will continue to model till my tummy starts bloating. The last time, i could only see the bumps at 5 months. Hopefully its about the same and a smooth one. God bless....

Oh, its our wedding anniversary today.

I love you dear and nothing has change since the day we went. From courtship to marriage to parenting and parents of No. 2 soon. I cant say we went through alot, but definately not little. We grew together and understood each other better. I love our marriage and i will continue to cherish it. Hope you feel the same too. Hugs..

better surprise me with some delicious food later. haha

Last night was a terrible night with Jessica. She KEPT crying, dreaming... I couldnt even sleep. Such bad nights, remind me that MOTHERHOOD isnt easy and how much more i can take. If tonight she is going to behave like this again, i can DIE. She slept rather late last night because my friends stayed till late so she got excited and we came home late after our trip to the airport.
Before 12am, she cried 3 times. I went to bed at about 2 plus and she never really stop crying, so i turn on the cartoon to ease her.
She watched till 3am, and refused to sleep. I couldnt take it anymore so i walked her to my mom's room, so sleep with her instead. I went back to bed, try to sleep again, i heard her crying. Feeling tired and worried at the same time, knowing that she is calling for mommy downstairs. But i was really tired.
While i was lying on my bed, i felt that i couldnt sleep. I wasnt sure if i even slept, after tossing and turning, i saw sunlight coming through the curtains. I think i didnt sleep man.
Woke up at 9 plus, came down. Went parkway with friends again, have lunch and all. Came back at about 4pm and havent taken any nap till now. Feeling high! and hopefullyyyyyyyy, i can sleep by 10pm without any disturbance through the night. I pray.......... Amen

(eyes getting smaller n smaller ), i shall remember this day and when Jessica is a grown up, i make her read this!! Jessica darling, you are not a easy baby! I hope when u read this, you are a successful, good person in your life.
 Love you, mommy

My KFC tvc is out. Lots of people doesnt understand the storyline. Me either. But i think i looked quite ok as a bride once more. I managed to video it down with my webcam, but sort of missed out the very first bit.
Just on Sunday there was an article about me on Shin min (chinese paper). A reporter called me after viewing my interview with Razor Tv, for mother's day. I liked the video and i thought Jessica looks cute too. William didn't like to be on the video esp when they filmed our wedding pic, and saw his face. well....
I do enjoy being a mother and there is always an obstacle one after another. Just 2 days ago, Jessica could'nt sleep well. She kept saying "Ulcer, Ulcer". Which we thought there was an ulcer. After i used a torchlight to examine her mouth, i dont see any and suspected it to be teething problem.
Just last night, she didnt sleep well again and i suddenly remembered i have some painkiller for the use of teething too, so i injected it into her mouth, so she managed to sleep slightly better. Same goes for me.
Her sleeping problem gave William a bad night and he didnt sleep a wink and couldnt work. Sorry about it, and there is nothing i can do about it. I dont remember myself of my teething problem, i cant explain.
This teething thing, resulted her not sleeping well and eating well. Fortunately, she can drink her milk. Thank God! i was worried about her health. This morning took her to the doc at Parkway and indeed i guess correctly about her symptoms. Doc says this could last up to 2 weeks. Oh dear! I bought some baby food, puree food, fruits gel for her. I can see that she really wants to eat but she didnt dare to. Poor baby. Mommy is here for you, always!

Cant wait for this to end.

The interview with Razor Tv

http://razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/currentaffairs/47504.html

Mother's day is coming and i have gotten my mom's present. Have you? I dont think i will be getting one, Jessica is still too young to even make one for me. I shall wait and till then i will have more grey hair. Dont remind me of it. haha
For the beginning of the month, i did 2 events and a KFC commercial which is showing now on tv. Many people cant understand the advert well, and they thought after my wedding i went clubbing. To correct them, the girl who was at the party wasnt ME. I was just the bride and i dont know who that 3 years old is supposed to be. A flower girl?
Since the opening of the Universal studio, i went there 3 times. To make good use of my annual PASS, i told almost all my friends that they should ask me along, during the non block out dates esp. Both William and I have the annual pass, Jessica can enter in for FREE till she is 4. Good deal! The last time i went with william while he is on leave and we managed to play most adult's rides before the thunder came. We had fun, just like the good old times when we are dating. sweet!
Jessica is beginning to speak more and i get to understand her better. She just recovered from a bad flu that was passed on to every single one of us. The maid, me and william. Until today i dont feel that i am totally recovered. My eardrums seemed stuck. Jessica is enjoying Shicida more than before and she looks at the flashcards now. Im veyr happy about it, but she loves to climb the tables. Im afraid some mothers may not like that. What to do? haizzz, it is getting tougher to control her. She is a little chilli padi. not afraid of pain. Last weekend, he palm went into the lift's door and i had to pull it out. She cried for a short while and resume running. All of us got frightened and didnt dare to stay longer.
Well, we are gng to Sydney againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
yes, again. this time round with Daddy and that makes me very happy. I like to have the 3 of us together although most of the time daddy cannot handle her. There were a few moments he almost slap her. Luckily he didnt, i think she will fly.
Catching the Iron man2 tonight with William and i shall update the ratings.

A trip to Universal studio, just Jessica and mommy

Kallang Leisure, before catching our show " how to train your dragon" we enjoyed the movie. Esp the toothless dragon

Disturbing our dwarf bunny- real name: button, nickname: Dek Dek( given by Jessica)

After our bicycle ride at East Coast Park - With Daddy, mommy and teh teh (maid, Siti)

our date

Citigold event, with Shih wen and Jaime

KFC commercial

My latest agent picture with DTZ.

Finally i can come back to my blog because i just gotten my new laptop and a camera!!!! so i can continue to do my updates.  I love my new computer.. it is much thinner and lighter without the CD drive. I dunno the model but it is acer. I love the color. Looks like dark bronze. No time to blog further cos i need to go out for lunch but im sure i will be back soon.

Been lazy to upload pics from Sydney , that's why i haven't been updating my blog. There were too many pictures and much more words to describe. I have nothing much on today so i can take my time then clean up the house for Chinese new year.

This was taken on the 1st few days, can't recall when. Weather was pretty cooling. We were at darling harbor. One of our frequent place.

Finding a spot to grab some Mcdonalds

Found our spot and there were mosquitoes (sand flies) Jessica got bitten. "BORING!'

Few days later , we were back at Darling Harbor to Sydney Aquarium and we saw a baby T-Rex. It looks so real. The guy in it, could control the Dino body like the Dinos we saw in Jurassic park.

I bought Jessica a Donut while the other 2 cousins were asleep and i remembered that my sister were eating the Oporto's chicken wings although i didnt snap the pics.

The kids proceed to this empty space to play. Jessica didn't dare to join in as she hates it when the sand enter her shoes or stepping on the grass.

Owen taking a dump with his portable potty.

back to the aquarium after .

At the end of the day, we took the train back cos my sister's car was sent to the mechanics.

One hot afternoon and i gave them a cooling bath. They love it.

From the kids playroom's balcony, the left side

the right side

Taking a stroll.

That afternoon, we went to macquarie centre to catch some performance.

little chairs, with little people.

talking and eating their donuts

close up. my mom tied her hair for her.

Over the weekends, we went to BONDI beach. Kids were sleeping when we arrived. Except Owen who was running all over the place

 

 Beautiful View

Picnic, with fried rice. Oporto's chicken wings again

 

The other side of the beach.

 

she loves the bars and she can climb them rather well now.

 My bao bei

 Owen as one of the transformers

 

we were at Bondi Junction 

 

Running again. I remembers i bought more clothes for her from Target

Preparation of her birthday. Dressed up in purple, top from GAP. That necklace belongs to mommy.

Location : King Albert Park. Jessica sitting on her throne.

She didnt allow anyone else to sit except herself. She seem to know that, it is especially for her. So cute. It seems like yesterday when she was born with zero knowledge and now she knows alot more.

There were about 12-15 kids. Even i lost count. That lady from Mac told me that there isnt much games for the kids to play as they were quite young. So we had just 1 game and most of them didnt know what was going on. So funny!
After the game, its MAKAN time. I think the adults enjoyed the food more than the kids. Kids just walk all over to destroy!

Jessica can never look straight into the camera! haiz... I love the birthday cake. I thought it was very cute. William find it a little small. Its 1.5kg. If we had more time, we could customise it with a more complicated design. Patissier needed more than 2 weeks . Furthermore they are close on the 1st january and we needed it on the 2nd. So this is the best we can get. It was DELICIOUS!

Close up

I didnt get to take any pictures with my daughter so we gotta do it at home. the party lasted 1.5 hours so everything was in a RUSH.

1 of her birthday present from aunty cadence. So cute. I always wanted a bumble bee suit but i cant find a nice one for her.

Next day, daddy and i brough out . We had dinner ION at some lousy serviced restaurant. We waited 45 mins for the food. Thankfully Jessica did sit through, until the food came and go. I was very happy with her performace.

Another birthday present - pink long dress