3rd day. will be staying over at my mom's place, lesser memories of little blackie here. No doubts, i still miss her. This is unfair! not that i can appeal to anyone to bring her back. Been crying lesser, but will it start again once im back at telok kurau?
She might have been killed after eating parts of the rattan ball, due to digestion but this is ridiculous! the pet shop sold us a rabbit accessory that killed the rabbit? what kind of logic is this? its pet lovers somemore.
Life still got to go on.. yes...
but this feeling sux, sometimes u just dont really want to talk to anybody else other than family members. Worse thing, is i have school work coming up and due date is coming.... i just dont feel like doing anything and wanna rot.

Leave me to rot kinda feeling.

got her on the 2nd july, just a period of about 30 + days, my emotional level is @ the peak. Life is so fragile, this led me to further thoughts in life. When im getting older, my mom will eventually leave me. i really cant imagine how sad i will be comparing to today. i will faint on the floor. Soon everyone leaves, and when im all along, my children have their own lives. No one to support me as a pillar. Oh dear. i was telling william abt this. He said i shouldnt be too negative about it.
Furthermore, Im only 24 now, why bother thinking about 30 years later? thats true. this incident serves as a reflection of life.
i still wanna be happy and carry my smile wherever i go. i just cant do that for now. lets see. Just wanna say i still miss her.
sorry for hear my nags.

Only animal lovers will understand

Since the last time i had rabbits for the past 10 years and recently again. I tend to realise that many people cant understand why i can be sad over the loss of a "rabbit". the answer is the bond and attachment to it. You dont see it as an animal but a companion and part of ur life.

many had pets for the sake of having one, following the trend of being a pet-owner, to kill time, for gf to make her happy, etc but not to understand them. Only those who can see what these amazing animals can do when they r not human, yet they themselves have feelings too, for u.

Since yesterday, i hear people around me said

"its just a rabbit, for goodness sake"
"buy a new one lor"
" chey, its only a rabbit, not even a dog"

words like this, actually hurt me more, cos if u dun understand, and wanna help. Just dun give any comments.
becos to me
ITS MORE THAN THAT

its a living thing just like us and not as fortunate as just to able to have more things in life. In fact, to them, we are all they have.

so pls dun say such words. i will even feel sad for a hamster.

Its a sad sad saturday. It was just yesterday when i load my pictures from my camera into my computer. Pictures that i took since my wedding day till now. I havent been updating my blog for a long time. I always wanted to share with everyone and to present my new pet " blackie" pet rabbit.

Got her on the 2nd July for my birthday present, from my hubby. I remember i was looking the the rabbits in the pet shop and reminded me of my last rabbit named "blackie" too. At that moment, memories of him drew back into my mind and i really wanted to have another rabbit which i have been thinking about long time ago.

Worrying about the lost of a dear dear pet, stop me from having another one. However, that very day, i decided not to fear the feeling of Losing a loved one and i have blackie in my arms.Seems like its just fated that she left me today, after falling so sick and couldnt wait for us to send her to the vet. She passed away while we are on our way. The minute of that loss, the world seems like collapsing when there are still many reasons not to feel so that way.

She's just so young and small and she definately dont deserve such short life span. I only had her slightly more than a month. This shouldnt happen!!! no way!! yet i cant do anything to help and to see her go.

I kept thinking through what went wrong? and what is it that i havent done enough ? i have never neglected her eversince i had her. Everyday i will make an effort for her, before i go for my classes and when i am back home, i will let her run around or carry her upstairs while i watch tv. The day we bought her, the smile on me was pure happiness. Even william said i didnt smile or look so happy on our wedding. I was indeed very very happy.

Things just changed! i cant imagine on daily basis i have to walk through the steps ive seen her hopping on. I really loved blackie lots.

yet, yet... i have to accept it.

here a sweet memorable picture of blackie for one last time.

She will always be remembered in my heart and soul

Now u can understand how tiny she is.

when she tried to flip. beautiful eyes!

having a pet is good. Losing a beloving pet hurts. But, this makes me realise something in life everytime when this happen.

Life is fragile, and at any moment we shouldnt take it for granted. everyone around us, our loved ones. dont live in regrets!

Even the young ones, Taking blackie as an example. She's young and i never thought this would happen, esp so soon. It happened!

Dont neglect ur loved ones and ur pet who can only be with you for a short moment in ur life!

(let me drown in tears) may time heal!